I wrote this back in December, before i had an audience. enjoy.
This last weekend I had the pleasure of spending some time with my Grandfather. As we sat in the Living Room together drinking tea he told me stories of he and my grandmothers love. This was the first christmas he spent without her in 58 years.
William loved his Joanne more then words can say….
"Divorce", a seven letter word that freaks me the f*** out.
For most people that word is “Love”.
Love does not scare me.
I know love and all it’s facets.
I have loved in all ways imaginable.
I guess it’s the finality of divorce that scares me.
You sign away a promise.
A promise to love and cherish said person for the rest of forever.
I already know I want you to be part of my forever.
But I also know that life happens,
Things go wrong.
Nothing is meant to last forever.
If I am not with you tomorrow I want you to know how much you have impacted my life today.
You dug me out of the emotional pit I was lying in.
You taught me that the only way to make a change is to jump out and take a chance.
I took a chance on you, and you in turn took a chance on me.
I want to thank you for all the endless nights of holding me.
Teaching me to breath in on your outs.
Loving me even when I couldn’t find it in me to love myself.
I have now learned to love myself.
It’s true , distance does make the heart grow fonder.
It gives you space to grow on your own and together.
You’re keeping up.
I just hope that in the end you’re there looking out in to the distance with me.
That we are able to live happily
In the house that we build together
In the life we are meant to have.
I will love you through every rough patch,
Every little mistake
Every broken promise
Because I know that in turn
You will love me just the same.